tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-362657282024-02-18T17:38:17.984-08:00Each Step is One in The Right DirectionAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.comBlogger414125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-75103861190444971542010-07-13T16:45:00.000-07:002010-07-13T17:41:31.071-07:00And Another Year Bites the Dust!So, 7:30pm today, 22 years ago, I entered the world. <br /><br />It's absolutely amazing how fast time is flying, like one big blur now-a-days. <br /><br />I'm not going to do any of those long "year in retrospect" things, but I do know that this year I have gotten through many things, and come out stronger on the other side. And for awhile, I didn't know if I'd be able to ever say this, even though everyone told me I had to figure it out. But I can now powerfully declare that I love my life, and I live powerfully.<br /><br />Now here's my question...how many times did you change your mind on what you wanted to be before you figured it out? I am still going into 9-1-1 telecommunications, but I don't know if I want to be behind a desk? I sorta want Tigrrr's sunshine to be out there in the world...AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com105tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-79961273311530129512010-06-17T12:42:00.000-07:002010-06-17T12:59:00.650-07:00Playing BigMember how I said I was organizing a race?!<br /><br />WELLL I'm actually doing it! <br /><br />And I'm playing WAYYY big. I'm hoping to have 400 runners, and raise a bunch of money. It's crazy, but things work when I play big like this. It's not true to who I am if I don't play big.<br /><br />It's going to be on August 29th, 2010 at 10:30 am. It's a 5k run/walk and my goal is to raise over $16,000 in support of Peel Children's Aid. <br /><br />I'm excited. And scared to death. But it's going to be amazing. I'm still looking for Sponsorship, as many of the big name companies had their budgets set last May, so now I'm looking to smaller name companies, real estate agents and insurance companies. All I need is the cost of the race covered so all the money can be donated to the cause directly. <br /><br />I know many of you are around the world, and such, so how can you help? Join the facebook page! Tell your friends! If you have any ideas or input or know how I can get sponsorship, let me know!!<br /><br />Facebook page is: http://www.facebook.com/pages/Go-for-the-Goal/127843300583258AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-10054674501056900842010-06-12T16:22:00.000-07:002010-06-12T16:39:17.281-07:00Fire in the HouseLiterally.<br /><br />Midnight this morning, my whole family was sleeping--cause we are party animals, you know. Unbeknownst to us, someone dropped a burning cigarette from one of the balconies above us. It landed in a box that was on our balcony. That box proceeded to catch fire.<br /><br />The door from our balcony was open just a smidge, but it was enough to let smoke in to set off our home fire alarms. We didn't even realize what it was. My brother was upstairs in his room, trying to sleep when he smelled smoke. He ran downstairs, and saw the flames on the balcony, and proceeded to wake my mom (who was home on a weekend pass from the hospital and heavily medicated) and step-dad up. He ran into my room, lifted my sister out of bed and smacked the crap out of me. <br /><br />What happens next is a blur. My step-dad goes to get the fire extinguisher, and I call 9-1-1. I get a 9-1-1 "all our operators are currently busy" and hang up soon after because my dad said the fire was out. Apparently, you're not allowed to do that because they called right back, and I spoke to someone from the fire department. Good thing too, because no sooner did I say it was out, did the fire relight itself. <br /><br />So, my dad gets the other fire extinguisher, and my youngest sister and I start taking the stairs down to the main floor. Never have I ever seen a 7 year old move that fast--we took 12 flights in 60 seconds flat. The firefighters came, and we informed them it was in our unit, and that my dad and mom were still up there (he's really stubborn!), and soon after my brother came down with the dog, having an anxiety attack. He went to the ambulance, and I stayed with my sister who was shaking like a leaf, while a mean police officer took our statements. <br /><br />Eventually the firefighters kicked my dad and mom out, and contained the fire and started to clear it out of smoke. My sister went to sit in the ambulance to keep warm, and my brother calmed down. When we were allowed to go back up it reaked of smoke and had dust everywhere. Being asthmatic, it wasn't a good place for me, and the friend I had been messaging told me to come to her house. I got my work clothes, and somehow made it to her house at 1:45am, although I don't know how, and we sat up and chatted for a while. I had to leave at 545, and didn't sleep at all,to get to work ontime. It was CRAZY! <br /><br />Needless to say, I didn't get the run I was hoping for in this morning, but I think I had a pretty good excuse.<br /><br />Everyone's really shaken up--you could feel the heat of the fire through the glass and to the other end of the living room--but we are so lucky. If we would've slept for like 2 more minutes, things could have got much, much worse. My little brother is practically a hero, getting everyone up and out of the house. <br /><br />All my dad could say when we met him at the ambulance was "well atlease we didn't get charge for a false alarm". <br /><br />On the plus side--there were a lot of attractive men there this morning. <br /><br />One thing I did learn, was that I don't think I'm cut out for this firefighting thing. All I could do was just run the opposite direction, and I don't know if I'd be able to run into a burning building when everyone else is running out. <br /><br />I'm going to a course in january at Humber College for 9-1-1 telecommunications, and eventually want to work myself into a job in fire prevention for community schools.<br /><br />So, now I'm hoping the adrenaline will wear off so I can sleep. I'm exhausted.<br /><br />Thanks for reading, friends.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-65548204807248843522010-05-26T19:29:00.000-07:002010-05-26T19:31:35.930-07:00My Running Family...I miss my running family. More than that, I miss being part of the running community. I’ve been running, although not as consistently, but mostly by myself. I’ve been the world’s crappiest blogger. Life has gotten so busy and so crazy.<br /> <br />I ran into someone from my running family today. And it was great. Conversations about training and racing. There’s like an unspoken respect for other runners. And I realized how much I missed being part of a community. When you run for 3+hrs with someone, you get tight. You’re real, and authentic. I miss reading your posts, about training and life. I miss everything about it. <br /><br />And to be completely honest, I’ve felt really alone the last few weeks. Stuff has been happening, and it’s been so hard. I wished when I was going for a run that I’d have someone to run with, to talk to. Someone to give me a hug and tell me that everything would be okay. I know how ridiculous that all sounds, cause I got so many people to support me, but sometimes you can’t control feelings.<br /><br />And so Tiger is back in the blogging world. I’m not sure I’ll be able to get out to the running world when all those other running people run, but I can post, and read blogs and comment and be part of a community again. Best part of a community like this? You're usually welcomed back with open arms!<br /><br />So let me catch you up! <br /><br />In the last year, a lot has happened. My moms been in the hospital twice, and is back there again. I’m planning and organizing a 5km race that will race $16,000 in support of Children’s Aid Society. It’s on August 29th. I’ve been in a dark bubble, I’ve been out of a dark bubble. I’ve run away from everything, and I’ve started facing the demons. I’ve had conversations. I trained 5 girls to run a half marathon. I did things. I did things I never would have dreamed I could do. I’ve stayed calm in a crisis without a plan. I’ve stayed positive in light of recent difficulties. I’ve fallen apart at the same time. I ran to survive. I ran to feel alive. I’ve hated running, and I’ve loved running. I’ve learned to put me first. I’ve been inspired, and I’ve inspired people. More than that, though, I’ve grown up. I got happy. And I got happy for me, and not for anyone else. I’m not sure what I wanna do anymore, but I am confident that whatever I do, it’ll be something amazing.<br /><br />And now on to your blogs...AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-9290357031169208622010-04-30T13:55:00.000-07:002010-04-30T14:03:31.728-07:00Oh no she didn't...Oh yes she did.<br />Its been a goal of mine for about 3 years. Every race I've run, every hot run I've done, I wanted to run in a bra top.<br />Before yesterday, I was never pleased with my body. This jiggled or that bounced.<br />I was convinced that everyone was going to be staring and laughing and judging.<br /><br />So yesterday I was running with D and her baby Q.<br />It was very, very, hot. I was wearing a black long sleeved shirt. Smart, I knoow.<br />I casually mentioned that one day I'd like to be able to do this, and take my top off so I was only wearing a bra top.<br /><br />I can't remember exactly what Danielle said..something about the moment.<br />And soo I insisted she wasn't allowed to look at me.<br /><br />And I stripped off my topp, revealing parts of myself to the sunshine that hadn't seen sunshine for about 11 months.<br />And I ran. <br />And nobody stared at me, which put my mind at eaase.<br />And then I got into it.<br /><br />So that's me. I can now run in just a bra top.<br />It may even become a regular occurance;) <br /><br />Other updates: I'm still inspired. Who knows what's next.<br />My self expression and leadership program starts tomorrow.<br />I have mixed feelings, but mostly excited!!<br /><br />Enjoy life friends!!<br /><br />Tigrrr<br />XoxoAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-42882982981873809502010-04-22T20:31:00.000-07:002010-04-22T20:33:43.134-07:00The Feeling of AliveI haven't posted anything of any substance in awhile. <br />And I don't really have anything to say except Ive run 3 times in the last 2 days.<br />Here's something I posted on facebook awhile back, and I enjoy it.<br /><br />It’s the feeling you get when you’re running up another hill, you’re 4th in the 2km’s you’ve done so far. It’s the lactic acid building up, you’re lungs feeling more on fire with every breath you take. It’s your calf cramping up, the stitch under your liver, the unquenchable thirst. Your legs are lead, and you feel like you can barely lift them. Dodging the people in the park and on the streets is exhausting, and surely adds km’s to your run. Everything tells you to stop, begs you to stop. <br /><br />But you keep pressing forward. You put up with the lactic acid, the fire in your lungs, the calf cramps and the stitch under your liver. <br /><br />And then something changes. You can’t feel the lactic acid, or the burning lungs or the side stitch. You know it’s there but you chose to let it be. You’re legs instantly feel lighter, like you’re walking on air. The people you are dodging become a blur and you do it effortlessly. Instead of being aware of the pain, you push that out of your mind. Instead you feel the crisp breeze. You feel the warmth of the sun on your face. You listen to the birds, the stream, the laughter of the people enjoying the village. You forget all everything you were worried about before, and are present to the things you are grateful for. For family, friends, fresh air, good health. You are present to your own strength—in running and in life. <br /><br />And that, that’s the feeling of alive.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-40679695793459998762010-04-20T19:38:00.000-07:002010-04-20T19:45:07.073-07:00Is Tigrrr alive out there?Hi Folks,<br /><br />Here's a quick little update.<br /><br />I've not been feeling very comfortable in in my own skin. So, less junk food, more running.<br /><br />I may or may not run the Mississauga Marathon.<br /><br />Im looking for a second job to supplement the lack of hours at my current one.<br /><br />I'm starting another program with landmark education. It's the Self Expression and Leadership Program. I'm very excited about that.<br /><br />I'm pushing my firefighter goal up...September 2010.<br /><br />Life is good, and I'm doing good.. I'm excited about life.<br /><br />Boston Marathon was super inspiring. Perhaps a goal for the future.<br /><br />Gotta go back to studying...AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-2047039071105371412010-04-06T06:54:00.001-07:002010-04-06T06:59:33.606-07:00She's still aliveGuess who's still alive out there?!<br /><br />That's right! It's Tigrrr. And she's doing better than ever. She's running, studying her firefighter text book, and is <em></em>probably<em></em>going to run a half marathon in May. Haven't signed up yet, but I know I'm capable of it.<br /><br />Beyond that, I'm just excited about life. Things aren't always amazing, but it's just part of the journey.And there's always a few things about my day that I love, things that make me truthfully happy.<br /><br />Here's my favourite quote of the present. Take from it what you will.<br /><br /><blockquote>I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.</blockquote><br /><br />P.S. When I'm not motivated to run, I call up my running buddy, and we take her baby in a stroller, and run to a place where they have magic cookies or icecream.<br /><br />P.P.S. Check out my friend <a href="http://elleloveslife.blogspot.com">Elle's</a> blog. She pretty much rocks.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-87949686080682450792010-03-22T22:09:00.001-07:002010-03-22T22:11:00.143-07:00A Cool new blogI have a new friend named Elle.<br />She's got a pretty cool new blog online. <br /><br />The address is <a href="http://elleloveslife.wordpress.com">here</a>.<br /><br />She's a pretty inspiring gal. You should follow along as she learns to love life. I know I am:)AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-69602705902019970492010-03-07T18:43:00.000-08:002010-03-07T18:58:15.274-08:00Weekend Learnings...So, since my landmark course, life has been a big learning curve. In more ways than one.<br />This weekend I saw my Grade 7 best friend, and it felt like I had seen her a week earlier. It was nice. <br />I went to a birthday party last night and wasn't feeling 100%. And still decided to drink WAY more than I should have. <br />Let's just say it didn't turn out positively, and its a good thing my friend had bathrooms on every floor.<br /><br />Today I cleaned my room. <br />And I found many many things that reminded me of 'that place' <br />I had papers and binders of things I had planned. <br /><br />I'm the kind of person who puts her whole entire heart and soul into everything she does. <br />When I saw these things, I broke. And cried. And then through it all out.<br />Everything. Except for my one binder that I had the Expo planning in.<br /><br />And then I threw it out! And I wanted to even burn it!!!<br />And it was empowering! <br /><br />I'm moving forward. Everyday it gets easier.<br />Tomorrow I'm going to high park, and going to run. Its one of my favourite places to run, but to be honest, I've been avoiding it.<br />I've been afraid of the feelings that would come up, and of running into people.<br /><br />so here it goes.<br />I'm continuing to be amazing.<br />And it feels great.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-25971941062107799582010-03-03T10:05:00.000-08:002010-03-03T10:29:35.182-08:00What A Difference A Day MakesI'm not going to be "JUST FINE". I am JUST FINE.<br />Wait, I'm actually amazing. <br /><br />I started work on Monday. I was under the impression that this new beginning stuff would magically erase the lingering lululemon sadness. I spent most of the day comparing and contrasting everything. Not a good idea. I ended up leaving at the end of the day, and crying myself into an uncomfortable sleep.<br /><br />Mind you, I think alot of this has to do with the fact that I was SO far beyond exhausted, between working at Chuck E Cheese all day, and then going to pick friends up at the airport, and worrying about not getting up in time. <br /><br />It's amazing what a difference a day can make. I woke up yesterday, and had stopped comparing, and got really into the things I was learning. I was still being "OLD Tiger," if you will. Worried about things I had no control over, worrying what everyone thought of me, all that stuff.<br /><br />Then i woke up this morning, and a <a href="http://paulafrancescagalli.wordpress.com">friend</a> (check out her blog, she's pretty incredible) had changed her BBM name to "Happiness starts now, live in the moment," and I got it again. Instead of having a list of things I needed to get done today, I just did what felt right. I'll be going to work in about 15 minutes, but thats all I really had to do. I'd like to get a boxing class in at midnight, but am not going to freak out if I don't. <br /><br />it's freeing to just be able to do what I want.<br /><br />On a Running Note, I'll be Running the Mississauga Half Marathon in a bra top. For really reals this time. I'm still going to get it from lululemon because there I can't imagine running in anything else. I may just have to order it online. I'm going to California in September, and will be running a marathon in October in Prince Edward County. It's also going to be very easy, and safe for me to commute to work via bicycle. <br /><br />I'm unstoppable, guys! <br /><br /><object width="560" height="340"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/v1xF1L8ZS7s&hl=en_US&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/v1xF1L8ZS7s&hl=en_US&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="560" height="340"></embed></object><br /><br />Chat Soon,<br /><br />TigrrrAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-80728558147716415862010-02-16T14:21:00.001-08:002010-02-16T15:22:47.623-08:00So...They changed their minds in a week.<br />I no longer have a job.<br />And I'm disappointed and upset and sad and hurt. And there are so many things I could say but it simply is what it is.<br />And they're just being a stand for me. Or that's what they say. <br /><br /><strong>Everything happens for a reason.</strong> <br /><br />And I got a lot from it. It gave me the tools to help me become what I am. I went in almost two years ago and barely talked to anybody.<br /><br />But it's just one more bump in the road to being great and amazing. <br />I mean, if statistics were right, I should be a drug addict and pregnant. Instead, I'm a marathon runner with big dreams and goals. <br /><br />I'm freaking strong. And my life still rocks.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-67963108836049205652010-02-08T16:52:00.000-08:002010-02-08T16:54:57.636-08:00PLEASE HELPFriends out there in the blog world...<br />I finally understand how powerful my word is, and I understand the fact that I can create ANYTHING i want, even if I don't know how I'm going to do it.<br /><br />So, I'm going to organize a race. I'm not sure WHEN it's going to be, but it will probably be a 10km race. I'm not really sure what's realistic.<br /><br />However, I have created a survey about the decision to run a race, and the factors that are important.<br /><br />I'd love if you could fill it out for me, and maybe put the link on your blog. It would help me out a lot!!<br /><br />Thanks guys, <br />Any other comments or feedback or input can be left in the comment!<br /><br />You Guys ROCK!! <br /><br />http://www.surveymonkey.com/s/VK92YM5<br /><br />Love Emily<br /><br />P.S. I'm still Running!AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-65528094519234149362010-01-27T08:55:00.001-08:002010-01-28T11:47:21.549-08:00Whole. Complete. Perfect“The master in the art of living makes little distinction between his work and his play, his labor and his leisure, his mind and his body, his information and his recreation, his love and his religion. He hardly knows which is which. He simply pursues his vision of excellence at whatever he does, leaving others to deci...de whether he is working or playing. To him he's always doing both.”<br /><br />So much to tell you about this weekend's race!<br /><br />I'm enlightened, and happy. <br /><br />I'm whole, complete and perfect.<br /><br />This is it, and IT is perfect.<br /><br />I'm learning how to be in the world as it is and as it isn't.<br /><br />I can actually be present in life. I can go into a conversation without having any <br />pre-concieved judgements.<br /><br />I can empower people and be empowered by listening. <br /><br />Each and every moment, I can re-invent myself from nothing.<br /><br />As soon as I declare something, I can be it. Even if I don't know how I am going to do it. Do you think Ghandi knew how he was going to free India before he did it?<br /><br />Feelings are experiences and they don't have to overwhelm me. I had my first real 'feeling' since Sunday--one that wasn't elation. Normally it would overwhelm me and define me as a person, but I was able to get myself present again.<br /><br />Life is good. <br /><br />I might run a half marathon instead of a full marathon though--the breathing thing isn't really working out so far this winter. <br /><br />Thanks for reading, <br /><br />Emily<br /><br />This is it, and it's perfect. From nothing, who I am, right now is the possibility of being present and courageous.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-33896523163766284472010-01-21T21:04:00.001-08:002010-01-21T21:12:56.181-08:00this weekends raceI feel like I do the day before a marathon.<br />Restless, anxious, insomiatic (yep, I'm pretty sure I'm making up words too.<br />Its 1206 am. And I should be asleep but all the above feeling are counter-productive when you're trying to sleep...just saying..<br /><br />Tomorrow. Rather today, I'm doing the landmark advanced course. <br />Google it (its not a cult)<br />It's do or die time folks.<br />I'm playimg full out. I could lose so much if I don't (alll explained in that post I'll eventually post(<br /><br />10am-midnight Friday, Saturday and Sunday. <br />I'll come back with possibilities.<br /><br />Send me some love...<br />TigrrrAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-36422430834531611742010-01-21T21:04:00.000-08:002010-01-21T21:12:30.719-08:00this weekends raceI feel like I do the day before a marathon.<br />Restless, anxious, insomiatic (yep, I'm pretty sure I'm making up words too.<br />Its 1206 am. And I should be asleep but all the above feeling are counter-productive when you're trying to sleep...just saying..<br /><br />Tomorrow. Rather today, I'm doing the landmark advanced course. <br />Google it (its not a cult)<br />It's do or die time folks.<br />I'm playimg full out. I could lose so much if I don't (alll explained in that post I'll eventually post(<br /><br />10am-midnight Friday, Saturday and Sunday. <br />I'll come back with possibilities.<br /><br />Send me some love...<br />TigrrrAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-6332206429939083812010-01-20T09:35:00.000-08:002010-01-20T09:38:16.343-08:00clinic started YESTERDAY!I joined a marathon clinic.<br />Out of the High Park Running Room. <br />There's hills EVERYWHERE and a pretty cool group of people.<br />Yesterday was 6k. <br /><br />And every minute sucked.<br />And then I couldn't breathe for like an hour afterwards.<br />But then the endorphins hit.<br /><br />And Tigrrr was back. <br />im still working on the post I've been wanting to post for awhile.<br />And maybe this will be a little bit of running and life blog.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-63666575679421056872010-01-11T08:39:00.000-08:002010-01-11T08:43:07.036-08:00New Year, New BlogHello dudes and dudettes.<br /><br />Soon I will open up the blog I am creating to the public. It has nothing to do with running (or not very much) but it has a lot to do with my quest to be a powerful young person who loves life.<br />It's the other blog on my profile. And I will post again when it is open!<br /><br />Conrats to everyone who ran the disney marathon! (Or did that goofy thing). <br /><br />All you runners out there in blog land inspire me<br /><br />Love,<br />Emily.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-53859116433994872602009-12-18T07:11:00.000-08:002009-12-18T07:15:16.571-08:00Merry Christmas, Happy Hunakkah, Plans for the futureYep, I'm still alive.<br />No, I haven't been running very much. I've been doing a lot of yoga though.<br /><br />I'm running the Ottawa Marathon in May.<br />I've started the strengthening process, and studying process to become a firefighter. (Work 7 days a month...yes please!)<br />Life isn't going to be<br /><br />Nothing's going to get the better of me anymore.<br /><br />Wishing you all happy holidays, no matter which ones you celebrate.<br /><br />Love,<br />tigrrr.<br /><br />Maybe I'll be around a little more from now on.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-731838488723696912009-10-22T12:21:00.000-07:002009-10-22T12:33:49.663-07:00Sometimes I Surprise MyselfOver the past 2 weeks...<br /><br /><ol><li> I cooked a turkey.For real. I'm the kind of girl that burns Kraft Dinner and Grilled Cheese, but I cooked a freaking turkey. And carrots. And apple and pumpkin pie.</li><li>I put oil in my car. Before this, I didn't know where the oil was supposed to go.</li><li>I organized and followed through with a booth at the Goodlife Toronto Marathon.</li><li>I learned that I can plan and plan and plan but sometimes there are curveballs and you just have to roll with the punches.</li><li>That being said, I rolled with the punches (and spent 5hrs at Kinkos) and figured things out.</li><li>I drove in Downtown Toronto</li><li>I went in to the hospital to visit my mom (after a few days of not going in)</li><li>I drove on the highway. When there were cars on the road. </li></ol><p>Among many many other things. And now I'm a nurse. Ha</p><p>The half marathon on sunday doesn't seem so daunting anymore.</p><p>Tigrrr</p>AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-39832720951894808542009-10-11T10:38:00.000-07:002009-10-11T10:40:32.385-07:00Niagara Falls International MarathonI just signed up for the niagara falls international half marathon.<br />On not a <em>pinch </em>of training.<br />I'll also be running in new shoes.<br /><br />I dont know about you, but to me this reaks of a bad idea.<br /><br />But it might kick my bum into gear!!<br /><br />Tomorrow I'm cooking a turkey.<br />I burnt Kraft Dinner the other day.<br /><br />That is all.AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-53284293718357080502009-09-29T19:49:00.000-07:002009-09-29T20:37:19.427-07:00MediocrityOk friends.<br />I know it's been awhile. Infact, I'm not even sure if i posted after I went to Lake Placid and didn't sign up for Ironman. If I didn't...well then I owe you another post. This post I present you with today really doesn't have much to do with running. Or maybe nothing at all. But it's important to me to share it with you and since you guys are my blog family, and will still love me even when i don't post as much as I should, you can deal with it.<br /><br />Things have been really hard for me. I decided not to go back to school. I'm working full-time. I'm not running. I'm making changes and doing things that are really hard but are going to affect my life for the better, and even though it really sucks I'm still doing them.<br /><br />But I think I get stuck there. I get stuck in this place where nothing else really matters. I wake up, and I go to work. And I love my job. I mean, I love, love, love my job. I work with the best people and can go in on the verge of tears and I leave smiling and ok. But I want to grow and learn and when I am not fully present it's really really difficult.<br /><br />Running for me is just more time to think, and that is really the last thing that I need. And it's frustrating. Because I love it. And I know I do. But it just doesn't make me feel as good because I'm so distracted. There are some pretty crazy, difficult, life changing things going on in my life right now and I'm stuck there.<br /><br />So, here I am. I am committing myself to greatness. I will not let myself get stuck in my head. In the places that it doesn't do me any good. I know it's not going to be easy, but I am destined to do amazing things. The things that bother me now and keep me stuck will no longer dictate my life. I will run, and I will enjoy it. I will inspire people.<br /><br />Who I am being is courgaeous, and the possibility that I am creating is the possibility of freedom, happiness and greatness.<br /><br />Thanks for reading.<br /><br />Perhaps a running related post for you soon?AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-44390952747181457612009-07-08T17:34:00.000-07:002009-07-08T19:21:35.049-07:00A long Overdue UpdateGood news...Life is busy!<br />And it's kinda the exciting kind of busy. Not the stressful busy, it's the ok, kinda sorta figuring things out staying completely distracted until nighttime busy. And I'm enjoying it.<br /><br />What I'm not enjoying is the part where I lay down at night and everything that I've been avoiding all day. And then I end up sitting there worrying about it until morning. I have some pretty amazing friends who put up with my blackberry messenger messages anywhere between 1-4am. I'm slowly coming up with a plan for this, BUT I'm pretty worried about starting it. And I'm not ready to say anything else about it. So we'll leave it at that. You can make up your own ideas, or try typing into the random magic GO Bar I have, but that's all you're getting:)<br /><br />This weekend coming up is the weekend before my birthday. So I took Saturday off, and I'm going out Saturday night. i'm spending the day getting all beautiful (hair done, new outfit, and new shoes). Coming home to make jello shooters, and then pre-drinking. THEN I'm going out to a pub and having a good time. And I'm going to forget alll of my responsibilities for one night. I think I deserve that!<br /><br />The following week is pretty busy...I have to get my bike repaired. Member when I fell off it?? WELL now the gears don't work. So I'm going into gears on Monday. Working the rest of the week, and working a boxing day type sale on Friday in Oakville. People who live in my area..come out. It's called midnight madness. And apparently they close down the streets and bbq corn and stuff. Party.<br /><br />Saturday I'm taking a "beginner bike class". They teach you how to clip in, about proper gear selection and group ride ettiquette. Then you go on a ride. It's about time I guess.<br /><br />The following weekend...I go to Lake Placid. To sign up for Ironman. Woahhh I still can`t get over that. I`m crazy or something. And it makes me a little naseous to think about it. But once I drop 700$ canadian on the thing, I`m pretty sure I`m gonna be super intense at training and I`ll be super fit within like 2 months and then I`ll do an amazing ironman and do so well that they invite me to do kona and i become a pro. Or I atleast finish. Hey, a girl can dream, right<br /><br />Oh, and I`m now a licensed driver. Don`t worry, I won`t have my own car for a few months. As in like 20 months. Or 28. Or something. No roadtrips for me.<br />But I want to drive to Florida when I get my own car. Or texas. or Arizona. Or...Ohio. Or somewhere. Theres this chicken finger place in Ohio...they sell only Chicken fingers. Yeah. I would drive there just for chicken fingers. My favourite food.<br />If I do Ironman, does that mean I cant have chicken fingers...<br /><br />I had a really good goal coacching and have some very exciting things in progress. I`m baccck home now. And I`m happier. Things aren`t different but I have thicker skin.<br /><br />And that`s about it. I have pics but they is all on my crackberry. So You`ll have to wait. `<br />I`m going to catch up with you guys now.<br /><br />Does anyone know how to make a `google reader`<br /><br /><em>Smile.Laugh.Breathe.</em><br /><br />TigerAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-85341101664147907582009-06-12T05:44:00.000-07:002009-06-12T06:10:00.556-07:00Postponed constructionSo, I know I said I was going to work on this blog in terms of making it look pretty. Unfortunately, though, it seems as though it has taken a back seat. For a few reasons. Basically, though, you'll have to deal with the random "go bar' as I'm not even at home, and have to fight for the computer.<br /><br />Here's a recap of the last 2 weeks.<br /><br />*Got in a huge fight with the road. YEAH...the road won. I was okay, but my bike to one serious beating. So, I'm going to learn how to ride my bike when I get back to Toronto (my dad wouldn't let me bring it because I'm not so good at it). That is, of course, after I get it fixed. The back tire fell off, and the gears are not working properly. The bike shop is going to loveeee me.<br /><br />* Got no sleep. I hate nighttime. With a passion. I studied a lot of exams. It kept me distracted and my mind busy. It was great. Then exams were over and I got punched in the stomach by life. I'm so thankful for the amazing people in my life.<br /><br />*came to kingston!! I'm staying at my Aunt's house again. I love it. It's so relaxed and no stress. Pretty amazing if you ask me. I'm working at the lululemon down here! It's so different, but so much fun!! I wasn't worried about coming to meet the people down here, lulu's are the same everywhere. It's like "friends by association"...which is relieving! However, Kingston transit might as well not even exist. The buses don't run past 5:30pm to go to where my Aunt lives...<br /><br />*Am seriously weighing options about school next year. I didn't do very well. one thing that became incredibly clear is the fact that I suck at multiple choice exams. I can throw everything back up at you, but if you give me four very similar options, I'll average about 33% on the exam. which is not what I do! I'm good at school. I also realized I'm pretty darn good at papers, getting an A on my paper in coaching class. so, i need to be in a program where I write papers. Possible options include:<br /><ul><li>Working full time and taking Health and Society courses part-time. That way I don't have to rely on government assistance to pay for school and I'm still able take courses towards my degree. I have already accepted that it's going to take me longer to finish school then most people.</li><li>Take a full year off school. Focus on gaining upper body strength. Work full-time and apply for the Humber college firefighting program. </li><li>Go to school full-time in Health and Society. It's a program where you write papers and stuff. If my GPA is high enough maybe try to get back into kinesiology the next year, but maybe just stay in HESO.</li></ul><p>To be honest, I'm not too concerned. It was quite the year. I'm not deciding until August, and i've got my whole life ahead of me to figure all this out.</p><p>As for training, I'm running a lot again. My legs are coming back, my fitness is coming back, my fitness is coming back. My whole plan was to ride alot while I was in Kingston, but in order to ride I would've had to bring my bike. I'll focus on what fitness I can get right now, and I'll be doing the k-town triathlon in August. Just one more reason to come back to Kingston! There's water, boats, nice people and comparitively clean air. Fantastic.</p><p>So that's about it. ;). any suggestions on what i should do with school, or training would be greatly appreciated</p><p>Tigrrr</p>AddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36265728.post-9731743749509152572009-05-28T19:19:00.000-07:002009-05-28T19:20:46.657-07:00under constructionI need a fresh start.<br />In more ways than one.<br />Good place to start? Why the blog of course. Anybody have any solutions to the issues on screen (random "GO" bar) let me know!<br /><br />Bear with me for awhile. I have to make this iron thing officialAddictedToEndorphinshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08289165436547387984noreply@blogger.com8